Fear...

I've heard that it is fear that drives men. maybe it is, maybe it isn't, i don't really know for sure. Is it fear that drives me to do the things that i do. Fear of fading into obscurity, of being ordinary, of being like everyone else. I go for a walk every morning in the park, and as i walk i think about the things that i've done, the things i want to do and how i'm gonna do them. Basically, i think about my life, and i've come to a conclusion that the reason i seek out advanture and danger and to do the crazy things i do, is because i don't want to be ordinary, i want to do something unequivical, something out of the ordinary. To stand out of the crowd, to be someone unique and an individual. To not be like joe shmoe on the street. I might be talking out my ass here but i think the reason i do the things i do is because i am afraid of being ordinary, fading fading into the back ground of life. I think i'm afraid of being a spectator in life and history, instead of being a key player in it.